My reasons for doing the 12WBT

I"ve just read Mish's email about getting your mindset ready for the 12WBT and she says to ask yourself;

• Am I afraid of change?
• Am I scared of failure?
• Do I have destructive habits?

HA HA HA HA HA HA.... ABSOLUTELY.....IS THE SKY BLUE....... YES....

But I really want to say no, no and no to these questions so I'm glad that I've signed up for the 12WBT as I really need Mish in my life right now.

So.... What are my reasons for doing the 12WBT?

Well I can list a heaps of things I want to change about who and what I am right now and I know they are all meaningful (and I will list some of them down the bottom) but there are 3 reasons that are pivotal for me.  3 reasons why failure is NOT an option.

1.  My Children

I am lucky to have two beautiful children, Amy who is 8 1/2 and Sam who is almost 5.  These two little beings are my world. I love and cherish them so much, they are such amazing little characters and they amaze me everyday.  But they are at an age where they notice I don't participate when we go to the beach and do other activities.  It saddens me that they are creating memories where I am on the sidelines and not having fun with them. The other side is that I am so down on myself and how I look I am often cranky and they are having to deal with the repercussions of my moods and it is not fair on them.  I want to be the best version of me so I can be the best mum I possibly can be for them. :)

2.  My husband

This year my husband and I have been together 17 years and married for 12.  And I don't ever remember a time when I was not plagued by weight issues or feeling bad about myself or depression.  I have never been the wife I have wanted to be.  He is the person I fell in love with and want to spend the rest of my life with yet I am not giving him the best version of me.  I want to laugh, love, live, be happy and carefree with my husband.  Life is to short to be carrying baggage around that is detrimental to your relationships.

3.  ME

I deserve to be strong, fit, healthy, happy and feel like I am worthy.  I want to reach for my dreams and make them realities.  I want to live now and experience life. I have always put myself last, ALWAYS.  I realise that for me to overcome my issues I need to make ME a priority.  I DESERVE IT.

So they are my three main reasons for doing the 12WBT.

Here are some of my other reasons:
I want to go into a change room and feel good about the clothes I put on (and not want to burst into tears).
I want to wear a swimsuit at the beach and feel good.
I want to buy the clothes I love and not the ones that cover the bumps!
I want to feel confident.
I want to run without all the jiggly bits (and without feeling like I'm going to die)!
I want to feel sexy.... (he he he, sorry I'm trying to be honest here!)
I want to feel at peace with who I am.
I want my children and husband to be proud of me :)
I WANT TO BE PROUD OF ME.

Sorry for the long post.  Now I'm off to start working out a Meal Schedule as Mish has suggested in her email.

Bring on Pre-Season - Woo Hoo....

Kaz xo